Natural Freedom

This isn't a thread of how content I am. Its quite the opposite. I just finished hanging out with a friend who is like me; has the courage to look into his flaws. We talked about a lot of stuff that I write about on here.

While taking a nap today I thought am I going in circles in life, because I resist my current life (un-content)? If i was to fully embrace my current life situation would that give me space to move forward? I have a feeling it would. It's just that I'm a pussy or xyz or am waiting for something. I'm not sure! "What ever you resist will persist".

Is there a reason why I keep going in circles or as my pal said, "It's like I'm on a treadmill. The floor is going backward, but I am running in place".

What do you resist in your current life ? Why ?
What makes you think you're a pussy or xyz ?
Because all your life you acted a certain way, does that mean you're doomed to act that way now or tomorrow ?
Where is your choice ?

Instead of asking yourself why you acted (and still act) a certain way, maybe you should look on :
What way SHOULD I act to be what I WANT to be ?

You're not gonna win if you don't play ...

What makes you think you're not content, is it the external circumstances that you allow to influence your life (Have you NEVER seen a "happy" poor/broke guy) ?

They say a picture is worth a thousand words :

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"You can tell a lot about a person by how they react when someone dies." - Charlie Kirk

Man this sounds like me talking. I slip in and out of feeling this way but I'm realizing now that I fully need to take responsibility for my life. I can't keep feeling this way and blaming it on the universe because it's nobody's fault but my own that I'm in the current state I'm in.

I know exactly what you mean when you say you feel like your waiting. I actually said those exact words to someone a few weeks ago. Like I'm waiting for something to happen in my life. Almost like you know something has to change soon because things can't keep going the same way it's going anymore.

Bottom line though it's about taking responsibility in your life because nothing else can help you except you. You are in control of YOU and that's it.

I resist where I am. I'm depressed and lazy. I have barely any friends to hangout with (1 or 2). My woman contacts who actually text me once in a while are practically zero. I have nothing I look forward to in life when I wake up other than being alive and that fades at times. I resist the type of person I am: lazy; weak minded; fearful. I resist that I am bitching right now. I resist it all, because I don't accept any of it. I know I can do better, but for some f'ing reason I CHOOSE to stay where I am as if I don't deserve anything better.

The fact that I am CHOOSING this way of living; its like a bad dream. I think of myself as weak or a pussy, because I don't have the courage to stand up and get away from all this. I seek advice from all you guys, but end up running in place! I think of myself as a pussy, because I CHOOSE to make all this fucking hard for myself.

In psych they say find the root of your problem and then you can create your life. That is what I'm doing, but I've been searching for the root for so long that is fucking draining me of life. Instead, you think I should forget why I am doing xyz and do what I want. Is that not layering on top of things; is that not the formula for a weak foundation? I don't want to ACT I want to BE!
I have seen a "poor" person happy, and I envy them! I'm here bitching about my life that from an outsider may not seem so bad. But I'm over here acting like the Scrooge being Mr. Negative. That's why I asked if I begin to be content will that not ease the flow of life and make it easier for me to move?

There´s only one rule when you´re stuck and it appears to work;

Let go of the payoff you´re getting for being stuck.

In other words, you benefit something from your stuck-ness.
Let the benefit go.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DAtMAmr ... ure=relmfu

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Thanks Jared that links gave me some retrospect of my actions

Three little words:

Let It Go!

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In building a statue, a sculptor doesn't keep adding clay to his subject.He keeps chiseling away at the inessentials until the truth of its creation is revealed without obstructions. Perfection is not when there is no more to add,but no more to take away.