Well, today was my 1st day back at class in over 6 months and it was refreshing to be around people with so much energy. After my first class I ended up hanging out with a girl from class (we smoked some mary jane and chilled). I had a 50/50 feeling of laid back guy & a bitch inside. I'm going WTF afterward! "Where's my raw fucking side??"
I got home and I got to thinking. Being raised by my mom was a downer for my game (don't get me wrong it can also be a plus at times). The downer being that the way I was raised was: don't take advantage of woman; woman is a blessing (pedestal bs), do not treat girls badly. And the latter of the three is the one I seem to have mixed in sex with. I feel bad when I have a one night stand, and it's no coincidence that many if not all of my one night flirts have been me being either intoxicated to the brink of being ridiculous drunk or just enough to get there. I have "hang-ups" on sex; fucking BLOWS!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm looking at this girl that I find attractive (nice boobies
) and I can feel I'm TRYING to be respectful, kind, blah, blah, BLAH! Then, being high I went into thinker mode and consciously went to control how I carried myself (that never feels fucking good, because your doing the opposite of natural ((pua shit))).
After that thought of being raised by my mom entirely (rhetorically speaking; but definitely mostly my mom). I love her, but she was a manipulated man; my poor pops probably had his balls shredded, but I'm not sure & I don't want to know. Anyways, I wondered how I would be if a man raised me and I had that side of me come out.
Just a thought, because my pimp tight game is struggling.
How do you guys feel, has being raised by a woman hindered your pimp tight game?