Hello everybody,
I will just shortly introduce myself. I have been reading this forum for about 9 months now. So it’s about time to introduce myself and maybe take part in the discussions whenever I have something to add. I have been getting a lot of valuable information from this forum and I got to respect especially The Kidd!! and Peregrinus a lot! These guys seem to really understand what’s going on. Also the other guys on this forum seem to have lifted themselves to a higher level.
I have been reading about PUA stuff the last couple of years on Fastseduction.com and Natural Game forum. However the guys on these forums still seem to be running after girls instead of the other way around. I don’t have time for that! Also getting to invested in a girl really broke my heart on numerous occasions in the past… I’ll get to that later. I never really believed in PUA-tricks anyways. Better to work on yourself and be a real confident man.
So about me: I have never been particularly good with girls. However I did get some action in the past. Also every once in a while a girl seems to fall in love with me. So no problem there. I don’t really chase after girls though. Actually to be honest I haven’t gotten laid in two years…
Doesn’t bother me greatly though. I could live without sex. But I don’t want to!
My “problem” is that 97% of the women I don’t even find attractive/interesting. However I develop huge crushes for the 3% of the girls that I do find attractive/interesting! It is what is known as “oneitis” in the PUA community. I have had this all of my life and it seems to be hardwired in to me somehow. I am sure it stems from some kind of insecurity deep inside of me. My friends would describe me as self-confident and a stable person. But I am not that confident when it comes to women. Especially not when I have fallen in love. Even girls often describe me as cute… but not so much as sexy…
So I have been reading this forum for a while now. But about 2 months ago I kinda gave up. I had other things to do. And I even started listening to women’s advice (my sisters mainly) again…! Then I went on a holiday where I met this lovely girl. I talked to her for a while. She seemed really interesting and attracted to me. We even exchanged phone-numbers and agreed to meet up the next day. Then, ten minutes after we exchanged phone-numbers, she suddenly tells me she lives together with her boyfriend! At that moment I realized I had already fallen in love with her. It happened again! I just felt this physical reaction in my body. I couldn’t sleep or eat for the next couple of days. Terrible!
Anyway I am (almost) over her now. I realize it is just a chemical reaction from my body and it will fade with time.
However this incident brought me back to Natural Freedom! And I started reading again. Read some of the old post again and all the new post. I read Pimposophy and Covert Tactics for the third time. I also read The Manipulated Man and The Great Female Con. This stuff actually makes a lot more sense to me now than it did before my holiday. So it’s good to be back!
Anyway that is my story. I hope to get a lot more valuable information here and maybe sometimes I will take part in the discussions (or should I say lessons) going on here.
Gonzo