Yudansha doesn't the sheer amount of time and energy you've spent thinking about this one girl, even writing all of your posts in this thread, make you just a little bit mad?
Imagine that bitch squatted over a toilet, gritting her teeth and straining to squeeze out a big hot loaf of raw shit.
Now tell me if you feel the same way about her.
You need to get her off that pedestal.
I tried the same thing in my mind when I was idolizing some stupid whore, but it didn't work. Not that I have a preference for scatt or something, but because my father always made/make jokes around that theme, that I became some sort of immune dude for that evoking imagery. The trick is to find something that disgusts you so bad like you are describing, and then associate the images (illusions) of her with the thing you have a lots of ¡yucks! (another illusion) and go about, make a "connection". Then play it in your mind until you get a disgust or a reaction on your body.
