Might still be early days but there's something I want to share as I'm experiencing what I feel is a major shift.
Some new energy's been coming to me for the past couple days, subtle yet powerful.
I cared less of what people think more than ever....I asked myself this question internally for the most part, am I gonna spend the rest of my life caring what people think? how valuable is it to really care what people think? what does it MEAN 'what people think?" I had never heard of this 'what people think' or the words 'grounded', 'congruent', and a 'attraction' to name a few, before I entered the seduction community....
How valuable is anything that I've learned, I'm asking myself now, what validity does it have?.
I can't just follow a system that seems to work and not be able to break it down, if I want to believe in something I must also have the power to break it down and disprove it, then come back to it if it still has a foundation.
This goes for Natural Grounding as well, I don't know personally how powerful it is, but I know how I feel when I go out there and see sexy women like I did tonight....years of pornography put me there, and I just have to remember, they're people.
A group of clubbers made fun of my hairdo on my way home, I knew they would but I didn't care...this is the number one pet peeve I've had my whole life: people making fun of me because it made me feel insulted, as if it was an attack on my character, but why would I care so deeply what THEY said about ME?....this time I didn't and I wasn't like "wow, I'm not affected anymore" I just genuinely didn't care.
Some people were drinking on the bus and the bus driver got angry at them, my ego was judging but I wasn't, I don't KNOW these people, why would I be pissed off at them? with all the luxuries of life I have, what effect could this possibly have from me?.
From these random occurrences, I have discovered that 1) I'm beginning to ask myself questions non-egioc, and experiencing a shift through that and 2) I'm not giving a fuck...a friend of mine told me a couple days ago how he'd like to be like me, not giving a fuck what people think....what he didn't know is that while I may display a sort of stoic character and apathy part of me cares, or it did anyways until yesterday.
Women are not pieces of meat, the values and beliefs we've grown up with concerning sexual relationships and intimacy are severely distorted....I know that now, it's fucking crazy, but I have no more wish of revenge against the seduction community, I just wish to stay away from it completely, I don't need them to go down like a ton of bricks, when I sort all this shit out for myself I'll be fine and that's all that matters.
Is that selfish? maybe, but fuckit, this is how I feel.
_________________ "Simply put, you being in her life is a BLESSING. Her wronging you in any way is her own self-inflicted CURSE, and if she does wrong you, then let the punishment fit the crime. Her life will absolutely SUCK without you."
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