Hineini wrote: * | Fri Sep 17, 2021 6:25 pm |
The second, that trusting yourself is a choice. That doesn't mean you aren't going to feel anxious, incompetent, awkward, flustered whatever - but really choosing to trust oneself, is trusting oneself WITH all the feelings and reactions. In my mind, confidence isn't a feeling, it's bigger than that - it's a choice to act even with everything that comes up, even with all the doubt.
from dictionary.com
Confidence
full trust; belief in the powers, trustworthiness, or reliability of a person or thing:
belief in oneself and one's powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance:
certitude; assurance
Courage
the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.
I would say it is a combination of both the above
in my mind the two are intertwined
Hineini wrote: * | Fri Sep 17, 2021 6:25 pm |
I did not believe I could do it. I really believed after the first one, given how competitive they were that I would not get in.
I really, truly, did not believe it.
But I showed up anyways.
This reminds me of this thread:
viewtopic.php?p=48807#p48807
Your internal didnt believe it
Your external was pushed to the state of doing it, the preparation, the pep talks, the buildup etc. and then showed up
at some point during the process, your internal got enough feedback and whatever, to start believing
by the end of the process it did and had caught up
instead of 'snapping back' it 'snapped forward'
then left you in this unfamiliar place to get used to it
Hineini wrote: * | Fri Sep 17, 2021 6:25 pm |
Usually I would walk away after one of these interviews dissecting it backwards; for both of these I walked away without any concerns. They asked at the follow-up how I thought the last one had gone, "I feel I said what I needed to say.. no regrets".
And I KNEW I had it.
Seriously nice feeling that one, imho..
no need to dissect, the reason had been removed
am curious as to ongoing changes that you have experienced since this event, mainly for other readers who come across this.. seeing as it is still fresh for you.
Bravo Hineini , bravo
a final note:
Hineini wrote: * | Fri Sep 17, 2021 6:25 pm |
really choosing to trust oneself, is trusting oneself WITH all the feelings and reactions.