October was a long month. Many things were put into motion.
November, this month, will be the month where certain theories are tested. Wish me the best fortune and scenario.
November Update:
My meditation lengths have stayed the same. It's difficult to keep meditating past the 25 minute mark with no breaks. I've cut down my meditations to about once per week/when I have absolutely nothing to do, which isn't often.
The findings are minimal to say the least, but my reading and work has been leading me down different paths to experiment with. I haven't found a way to meditate that makes me most comfortable yet or helps me get to a comfortable state. That seems critical. It's probably a reason why I can't sustain meditations more than 25 minutes.
What's funny is that my life seems to have been having some nice surprises in the career, education, skills, and personal development arena. Everyday, I'm keep finding out how easy it is to get what you want or need when you're just in the right place at the right time.
Cigarettes are still bugging me, but I found a basis as to why I smoke them. It's easy to see what's causing the addiction, but it's hard to just pull the trigger. I still have a lot of fear. I know that if I put the cigarettes down I won't go back to back them. What's worse is that I'm afraid my root problem will try to find other outlets unless it's possible to channel it.
I also have a loose idea of how to handle my student debt so I can pay it off by the end of 2015. It's just shy of $24k.
I won't be updating this again for a while.