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Author:	The Kidd!! [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 5:27 am ]
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I tell my mom all the time that she was a GREAT provider but a VERY SHITTY mother. My mom used to tell me to my face that if I didn't meet her expections scholastically I would get no love...so Merrick, your case is not special. I'm not going to baby your ass like some of these other cats might. HANDLE THE FUCKING TRUTH ALREADY...the sooner you do, the sooner you can start doing constructive shit to improve your lot in life. Neo couldn't learn Kung Fu and kick ass inside the Matrix until he puked his fucking guts out, passed out, then eventually HANDLED THE FUCKING TRUTH IN THE REAL WORLD. I just told myself one day...FUCK what my mom thinks. ...and I've been free ever since. The other day my mom asked me to put her on my bank account 'in case of emergency' (translation: she wants to know how much money I make)...I told her that I'm showing her how financially responsible I am by NOT putting her on there (translation: FUCK YOU, BITCH. ). She instantly threatened to remove me from the will. I just laughed and said, 'Go right ahead...and have a nice day.'. That bitch has never treated me better since. Moral of the story is: QUIT YOUR FUCKING CRYING AND MAN THE FUCK UP ALREADY. Once you do that, INDEPENDENT of what THEY think, you will earn a respect from them that you never imagined possible. Trust me.

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Dali [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 7:05 am ]

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The Kidd!! wrote:

I tell my mom all the time that she was a GREAT provider but a VERY SHITTY mother.

My mom used to tell me to my face that if I didn't meet her expections scholastically I would get no love...so Merrick, your case is not special. I'm not going to baby your ass like some of these other cats might. HANDLE THE FUCKING TRUTH ALREADY...the sooner you do, the sooner you can start doing constructive shit to improve your lot in life.

Neo couldn't learn Kung Fu and kick ass inside the Matrix until he puked his fucking guts out, passed out, then eventually HANDLED THE FUCKING TRUTH IN THE REAL WORLD.

I just told myself one day...FUCK what my mom thinks.

...and I've been free ever since.

The other day my mom asked me to put her on my bank account 'in case of emergency' (translation: she wants to know how much money I make)...I told her that I'm showing her how financially responsible I am by NOT putting her on there (translation: FUCK YOU, BITCH.

). She instantly threatened to remove me from the will. I just laughed and said, 'Go right ahead...and have a nice day.'. That bitch has never treated me better since.

Moral of the story is: QUIT YOUR FUCKING CRYING AND MAN THE FUCK UP ALREADY. Once you do that, INDEPENDENT of what THEY think, you will earn a respect from them that you never imagined possible.

Trust me.

Ohhhh....
This is sooo TRUE!!!

My mom was/is a very good provider, AND a very good mother.

BUt.-
When her self image get's threatened because 'I' (as an extension of her ego) refuse do something I consider not valid (because I will not feed her self image of others with my talents) She gets very emotional.

I fell so many times with her "helpless mother crying act" and then I got softened, and did what she wanted. Until one time I man the fuck up, because I saw a pattern and told her:

Hell... If you gonna cry, then do it, completely, let it all go. I will not fall for that same shit again. So stop trying to maniupulate me with your tears.

Before this 'manning up' I collapsed when the weak display of hers begun; I felt like shit, and sometimes cried in my room because of the (inconsiderateness, grossiness, jerkishness, and how feisty I was) because of the shame she instiled in me. But not anymore. I can see clearly now. Now I am Icy and cold (when I check and asses the situation logically of course and is a clear disadvantage and abuse for me)... And it really feels weird, but is very liberating. It's like breaking the chains of motherhood in sense.

Even your beloved mom is part of the matrix, and she's programmed to manipulate you. (BIG TIME!, you are on of her investments of her pregnancy)
She will test, and test, until the levels of what she can do with you are in her desired threshold, that you will get tamed like your father. So stop this.

It takes balls, though.

Author:	Alchemist [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 8:16 am ]
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Psychologically breaking the chain between you and your parents is much harder than the physical but that's the work that needs to be done. I'll never see my father again, might be the same case for my mom.

Author:	Sniper [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 10:38 am ]
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Also don't forget the law of Karma: our parents are often victims of their parents and their parents are victims of their parents and etc... Now I'm not saying that they should not have taken responsibility however a lot of people lack the awareness Or the strength to do inner work so they end up projecting their demons to their children. Also psychology, awareness and inner work has not been so known back in the days (60's and 70's) like it is now... with the modern media and the internet people today can have access to knowledge and know about things that were not so known 50-60 years ago. Now someone has to break the cycle and that could be you Merrick Edit: there are many stories from victims of the holocaust or world war 2 who projected their fears and traumas into their children and in most cases were not ever aware that they were doing it.

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Resonance [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 11:11 am ]

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Alchemist wrote:

Psychologically breaking the chain between you and your parents is much harder than the physical but that's the work that needs to be done.

I'll never see my father again, might be the same case for my mom.

This the reason why I haven't really spoken to my own kin folk I have to work on myself and not be so gullible anymore I am done being a hero over there. I hate how my stepmother has my father beneath her thumb my father doesn't think so but truthfully he is. She puts me in guilt trips that affect less and less.

Pretty soon they won't understand why I became what I have I may just cut them off all together once I my circumstance gets better.

After I repay them for showing me love for what they did do for me.

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Aragorn [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 6:33 pm ]

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The Kidd!! wrote:

I tell my mom all the time that she was a GREAT provider but a VERY SHITTY mother.

I just told myself one day...FUCK what my mom thinks.

...and I've been free ever since.

). She instantly threatened to remove me from the will. I just laughed and said, 'Go right ahead...and have a nice day.'. That bitch has never treated me better since.

This!

My mother always throws the fact that she's provided for me in my face, expecting me to cower under her every word because she brought me a cheese sandwich or whatever. And no, saying I'm thankful is never enough.

Be right back, gotta go puke, pass out and proceed to kick ass...

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The Kidd!! [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 6:47 pm ]

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Quote:

Pretty soon they won't understand why I became what I have I may just cut them off all together once I my circumstance gets better.

After I repay them for showing me love for what they did do for me.

Reverse this order.

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Resonance [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 7:06 pm ]

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The Kidd!! wrote:

Quote:

Reverse this order.

Will do

Author:	Merrick [ Tue Apr 24, 2012 11:36 pm ]
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Kidd, you were right.. Obviously I am not alone.. Thank you for your replies and support guys!!

Author:	Altair [ Wed Apr 25, 2012 1:03 am ]
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Just compile a list of everything that she has done to you...and if you need to get it off your chest do it. The list will prevent you from veering off course.

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Merrick [ Mon Jul 02, 2012 10:29 pm ]

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Resonance wrote:

Sounds like that boy might commit suicide

Been on my mind like 24/7 lately.
So I might just go through with it already.

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Jared [ Mon Jul 02, 2012 10:32 pm ]

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Merrick wrote:

Resonance wrote:

Sounds like that boy might commit suicide

Been on my mind like 24/7 lately.
So I might just go through with it already.

Suicider doesn´t usually condemn the whole species
but the individual.

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Resonance [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 12:01 am ]

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Jared wrote:

Merrick wrote:

Resonance wrote:

Sounds like that boy might commit suicide

Been on my mind like 24/7 lately.
So I might just go through with it already.

Suicider doesn´t usually condemn the whole species
but the individual.

Translation: All that will accomplish is admitting the matrix has won and it has broken you or help you achieve the greatest form of freedom to relieve of your suffering depends on how you look at it.

I contemplated this all the time, I decided on the prior and I will go when its my time and no sooner than that. I see you're still depressed it seems you still don't have the drive or the desire to go after what it truly is you want. MeI want to show them all that this has not beaten me and has made me stronger.

If you're feeling like that, you don't have enough hate but hey to each their own do what you want, you only live once just want to put that reminder there for you. I suggest you find a way to make th most of it.

Author:	Sniper [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 12:50 am ]
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@Merrick Remember you are a free man, you don't live in a place where some dictator or family can force you to do stuff you don't want to. You are also not in the army where you have to do stuff just because someone tells you to... No matter what happens around you- you are still a free man. freedom from the matrix is knowing that you always have a choice.

Author:	Merrick [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 1:10 am ]
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One cannot be his own therapy. One cannot look at himself objectively. We are slaves to ourselves and our own thoughts. That is my prison. Who gives a fuck about the matrix, I want to be free of myself.

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Resonance [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 1:25 am ]

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Merrick wrote:

Who gives a fuck about the matrix, I want to be free of myself.

Well there you go then do what you must

It is easier to just say fuck it and blow your brains out rather than figure a way to insert and condition yourself too be more confident and positive about yourself. It took years to get to the point you are at now don't think that shit will go away overnight partner unless you do what you're going to do.

Anyway holla

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Aragorn [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 1:29 am ]

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Merrick wrote:

One cannot be his own therapy.
One cannot look at himself objectively.
We are slaves to ourselves and our own thoughts.
That is my prison.

Who gives a fuck about the matrix, I want to be free of myself.

Who knows you better than you do yourself?

You create this prison and don't allow yourself to look at things objectively, which is entirely possible and not at all difficult once you see how it's done. You built the prison and locked yourself in, you can break yourself out. All it takes is a little bit of time in a quiet place. Think, analyze and see what you come up with.

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Star_Above [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 1:45 am ]

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The Kidd!! wrote:

I tell my mom all the time that she was a GREAT provider but a VERY SHITTY mother.

I just told myself one day...FUCK what my mom thinks.

...and I've been free ever since.

). She instantly threatened to remove me from the will. I just laughed and said, 'Go right ahead...and have a nice day.'. That bitch has never treated me better since.

Nicely done!

As Kidd's example just showed, it's psychological warfare and a game with EVERYONE!! Even your mother. And remember, you don't owe anybody shit people, if your parents say "You were lucky we raised you good, you had food and a bed"...well guess what, if they didn't provide that for you you would have died and their asses would have went to jail....who does what for who?

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Flow83 [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 5:30 am ]

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Merrick wrote:

You're not 'yourself' -- 'yourself' is a concept you formed, YOU *can* look at it.

If I tell you right now to close your eyes and look at your thoughts -- what looks at it?

Merrick can't look at merrick --
there's an awareness that can.

Free will is the choice of which you identify with.

Thoughts arise and you don't stop them anymore than you stop the sun from rising and setting, but you are within power to decide if the sun rising and sun setting makes you angry or not, or if it means anything other than "that's what it does."

Thoughts come, that's what they do. There's something that decides whether or not they are 'real', if they should be believed, if they have an emotional charge.

You are that something.

If you destroyed your body you would immediatel identify with that something, but it wouldn't have a body to express itself through, and you'd see the silliness of it.

See the silliness of it first.

Merrick needs to die.

You don't.

Author:	Jared [ Tue Jul 03, 2012 6:05 am ]
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If the problem is pain, it is rather useless to talk peace. Mere talk about peace isn´t peace. Too big of an Awareness Gap. But a reasonable degree of advancement is possible.

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