Having come to terms with my weaknesses I have become stronger. I am finding peace with my emotions, soaring with the highs and sinking with the lows, in that I am learning a few things.
I can't bottle shit up anymore but if I feel it I don't need to give energy to it. Stepping outside of my place and seeing my emotions from a place of curiosity rather than judgment had lead to a deeper understanding of myself. I had an immature view in regards to my emotions, not understanding and appreciating that there are layers, seeing those layers has lead to a bigger picture of myself.
My emotional hooks coming off, the emotional awareness kicking in. I really did need this experience to take me to that dark place so I can finally move forward from lifelong hangups and make peace with my demons.
I'm not a strong believer in the law of attraction but I do believe that your general sense of direction leads you where you need to be. Last night I felt I needed to have some solitary drinks so I went to the bar then I ran into some friends, we ended up clubbing and I made some connections.
I went to sleep in peace, the main thought in my mind is the silver lining at the end of this part of my journey. Everything that's happening to me now is leading me in that direction.
_________________ "Simply put, you being in her life is a BLESSING. Her wronging you in any way is her own self-inflicted CURSE, and if she does wrong you, then let the punishment fit the crime. Her life will absolutely SUCK without you."
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