Natural Freedom

so the girl I was seeing decided that a past indiscretion was too much of a hurdle for her to get over. ever since she "accidentally read my text message (I texted a chick early last year telling her that I thought about "having her for lunch" ) she has been bringing it up as a means to squeeze my balls. I didn't deny it, and we went through the whole "woo blah" about "how close is this girl and I , since we can send messages like those to each other?" I found men sending her "questionable" texts and I didn't even give her a headache about it, so she is way off for pulling a stunt of such.

I didn't hear from her a few days coming up to X-Mas. I called her since it was cheaper for me since I use an internet phone and got her voice mail most of the time. she sent me a text telling me how stressed she is, and that she didn't want any distractions

I told her that she could have at least let me know. she retorted with "she has to beg me to know what's on my mind"
I asked her if the relationship was a game of checkers. I move, she move and told her to get at me when she was through stressing out.
she then brought up the scenario with the text and said she knew what I wanted. she knew that "I" (Prodigy) wanted to leave her. I told her since she knew what I wanted , it's best she does what works best for her. her reply was " as I always do". after that Radio Silence....

I went out early this morning. about midnight. I was on the Port. chilling with a cold Guiness and a crudely rolled spliff. I smoked a bit and drank my poison. it was like Valentines as I observed most of the couples strolling by. an old Toyota Corolla drove up and parked behind the car I drove. a svelt lush seductress emerged from the car. a guy got out on the driver side. I put my "smokes" down and attempted to distract myself from the seductress. she began walking across the street while exclaiming in an attempt to look at me and for me to notice her. I looked up, she was looking at me. the car opened and I saw another guy and girl emerge. I liked the gold Short dress the new girl had on. I had a cap on so, I was observing from below the brim. Seductress walks up to me and stops a few feet away at about 1(o) Clock. I look up and get stuck in the fluff V in the center of the Skin Tights she had on the guy from the car walks across to get her
https://hampedia.org/wiki/Mate_guarding, he gave away his position and displayed his weakness. they walk down the street and I get into the car to listen music. I opted for Celine Dion because I wanted to see if I could bring out some "feelings"...needless to say, it didn't work.


On X-mas eve I did a little catering for my Sis's staff party. while I was in preparing the food, I was conversating with a few of the workers who were sitting around. I gave them all some forks and napkins to wrap to keep them busy, since they wanted to distract me. The trainee from this thread viewtopic.php?f=2&t=2819&start=20
came in and said that she was hungry. I told her to let her appetite grow since it wasn't ready yet and said she was gonna go get "KFC". my sis then said, but you are going to get "KFC" K(insert real name) Fried Chicken! she laughed and went out to her desk.
The workers left me alone in the Kitchen, Ms. Trainee comes in. we had "feeling out each other" dialogue then my sis comes in and sits down Kills the mood and Trainee decides to leave. I was standing behind the door at one point while taking the chicken from the deep fryer. the door bursts open almost hitting me. guess who? Ms. Trainee.
Me. Owww, you almost broke my elbow ( while giving her a look)
Her. (in a low soothing voice while giving me some strong eye game) I'm soooo sorry, then she raised her hand and featherly stroked my arm
I got red. I laughed and told her I was just joking, but if she did hit me, then it would be her responsibility to take care of me.
Her.( still in the soft voice ) that would be ok, because I have the qualifications to be a Nurse. (turns out she is going to nursing school after her time at the office).
she went back out, and I served the lunch and began to relax. for the remainder of my time there, she found me wherever I was and stood beside me, with Cell phone Idly out( not in a hurry to get her number or give her mine, I want her interest to reach a fever pitch )
on the drive home I was a bit surprised when my sis commented on how the young lady had her hands over me all day

HAPPY NEW YEAR FELLAS...ALL THE BEST WISHES!!!!!!!!!!!

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"I'd rather have no bitch than a half a bitch" Iceberg Slim

It is best that a woman knows as little as possible about you. The less she knows about you, the stronger her desire for you will be (usually).

Women want you to open up to them so that they can begin to manipulate you. She wants you to be exclusive with her, hence her trying to gain leverage over you by trying to make you feel guilty about texting the other broad.

She violated your privacy, so you were right to kick her to the curb. She can't be trusted.

Also, bravo for keeping an eye out for that body language (mate guarding). It can be fun to see big buff frat boys reveal their insecurities.

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“I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. . . ."

-Thoreau's Walden

NB. she was projecting on Me. She wanted to leave.

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"I'd rather have no bitch than a half a bitch" Iceberg Slim

I don't think she really wanted to leave. She wanted a relationship with you, but since she couldn't have it under her terms, she decided to jump ship.

Usually, when we pimp tight fellas deflect manipulation at this stage, the woman will react by feeling more attraction and/or doubling her efforts to get to you. However, there is the odd woman who will react by suicide bombing the relationship. She thinks 'this ain't goin' my way, so it ain't gonna go at all!'

KABOOM

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“I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. . . ."

-Thoreau's Walden

Sounds like an enjoyable evening and a good way to roll in the New Year.

However I do feel I have to give you a slap upside da ead.

Guinness, poison? really, come on Prodigy..

Black nectar, irish champagne, the black stuff, a meal glass, the blonde in the black dress and plenty of others..

But really, poison..... tut tut

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In building a statue, a sculptor doesn't keep adding clay to his subject.He keeps chiseling away at the inessentials until the truth of its creation is revealed without obstructions. Perfection is not when there is no more to add,but no more to take away.

ooooh, I forgot it's also one of your drink of choice!


Mr. Ketchum, I also think she is bullshitting, but she chose a wrong time to play chicken with the grenade. I know her and when she cracks... I think I might let her go though.
" I can have 10 more girls like her, but she will never find another me"

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"I'd rather have no bitch than a half a bitch" Iceberg Slim

Yes, if I had to guess, I would say that she will make a return sometime. She detonated her bomb, but she seemed to stay well away from any bridges when she pressed the button. She may get revived with Edo Tensei, become overzealous with her new body, and try some submission holds on you.

You should kick her to the curb if you haven't already. I would not tolerate her snooping. It's just plain rude on her part. You deserve someone with more class.

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“I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. . . ."

-Thoreau's Walden

GOOD!!! - More time available for you to either work on yourself, or deal with someone who deserves you more. (No matter how special this girl may have been in other ways, I think you can get WAY BETTER THAN HER, if for no other reason than this:) Not to mention all her game playing that you go on to describe. I know that Kidd!! has detailed many ways to beat them at their own game, but I sometimes wonder if this is worth it. I guess so, if you enjoy the game yourself. Me, not so much: life, and the corridors of my own mind, offer me far more subtle mystery than they could ever conjure anyway.....

Best wishes to you for 2013.

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"I will not grow in the light, until I pass through the darkest caverns of my heart..."

"Temet Nosce"

I spent my New Year's Eve working; upon my entrance to the establishment, was checked out by a couple of fine-looking women dressed spectacularily well. One in particular flashed me a pretty smile and made "god i'd love to fuck you" eye contact (while standing next to a guy, presumably her bf). I returned the eye contact, and arranged my position every now & again so that I could be discretely approached, but she made no effort to even approach my vicinity for the rest of the night, so I figured it was her loss.

Ended up on the beach outside playing with the resident dog, and in a conversation with an adorably REAL and NATURAL 6-year old girl about how peculiar yet friendly this dog was. Turns out she is a dog lover, and she was impressively affectionate with this dog (on equal terms, not the usual master/pet mentality). Was interesting to note how, everytime I became enamoured with her demeanor towards the dog, she psychologically distanced herself from me (without moving her body at all), and when I recognised it and allowed her, in my mind, to just be, she would re-engage me in conversation.

Also was interesting to note how fake and plastic her younger sister (4 years old - she introduced us) was, despite being younger. The 4-year old was dressed like the other female patrons, but the 6-year old I was interacting with was dressed as if she were simply going out to play in her front yard.

A far more interesting interaction, I think, than I would have gotten with any of the adult, "sophisticated" women there....

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"I will not grow in the light, until I pass through the darkest caverns of my heart..."

"Temet Nosce"

Isn't it just

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In building a statue, a sculptor doesn't keep adding clay to his subject.He keeps chiseling away at the inessentials until the truth of its creation is revealed without obstructions. Perfection is not when there is no more to add,but no more to take away.

So it has been brought to my attention that a failed attempt to be "female male protectors"-(women who rally behind other women in domestic/relationship affairs- )is what had started that boiling pot in the woman I was seeing on an exclusive levels head . Apparently while I was seated comfortably watching Tarantino's recent work of art, my sister and her church sister was busy spinning yarns about a certain girl who as been yearning to take my innocence

I recently took a job at a villa because a "friend" of mine was having some personal issues. We were usually partners in most class activities, things went a little dull after we entered a competition, I won 80% of the prize and categories but a mix up by the judges, made me second runner up behind him. Anyway, when I showed up for work he was not! Pleeeeased! I had texted her a few times and didn't get through (her phone was broke naturally I assumed otherwise, she called me during preparation one day. I wasn't able to speak so I told her I would get back to her.

We spoke, nothing deep because I wanted to speak when I had a clear skull and work was consuming( I was catering for a Grammy winner, his family and entourage)
Work at the villa is back on hiatus since homeboy returned. I was told by my "Scout" ( older woman with money! All over me even in font of her husband, makes me a tad nervous ) , that I should keep an ear out since dude may leave the job.
Last Friday I ran into a girl I really like. I was waiting to use an ATM and I saw her across the street.
I went "psssssssssssssst!" And called her by name. She stopped and smiled and said hi. She mouthed " its my birthday !"
I mouthed back " I know, I gave you love on facebook"!" She gave me a puzzled look and said she didn't see it, I said OK and she left to go use the net at a cafe.
About half an hour later saw her walking on the other side of the street, I assumed she hadn't seen me and decided not to call out to her and went my way, as I adjusted my ear phones and began turning my volume up, I heard her call me. I crossed the street and she opened her arms. I half hugged her but made sure to linger long enough so she could get a good feel of me and I of her. We made eyes as we talked, she wanted me to take her to lunch, while pointing at the place she was working. It was a food place, so I'm like".....wait, I'm not taking you to lunch at your work place" she said OK, she went to work and I went my way, will see her soon.

Thursday my old class mate stopped by. She was having self esteem problems and my position was to be "shoulder to cry on" seeing that I Chilled my core as much as she talked about the guy she really wants ( older guy, making money, has ego problems based on the limited info displayed on his dossier) she is going on about the next guy she is seeing ( she's gonna be 31 this year, this guy is 23. Is S.A.D (social anxiety disorder)*he has a phobia of leaving his home to go out, or take public transport.),while she's talking I'm busy getting food ready, she stays extra close to me while rubbing her breast on me every chance she gets. I mean I love boobies But at one point I had to call her on it, " you sure enjoying rubbing your breasts on me huh? , naturally she denied it, I just chuckled and went back to work, she wold rub them tits up on me again before she left.
She went on about her good Nana and why and how it hooked these guys. I'm wondering why "I" am not hooked

Anyway, told her that the older one with the ego problems would call soon. She had said she hadn't spoken to him in about two weeks. Sure enough he called while I was taking her home. Tweeecee!
She invited me in and spoke about herself some more, I mean , I think she should blatantly sell ass ( she had fun reading my pimp bible I have on my book shelf) , I got up to leave, walked to the car and opened it, she asked for a hug ( knew it was coming, just wanted to see how badly she wanted it), she squeezed me to her and I squeezed her to me, quickly grabbing her but in a non creepy way

Sooo honey's been calling me frequently since the other day. My spider sense went off when she cracked I love you a few time...they were really off key. I knew she had fucked up but didn't really care to ask how.
Last night she asked me if I'm seeing anyone new. Spider sense buzzed! I had the idea when she decided to break off that some dude was sniffing her tail and pumping that ego out of proportion, because I already knew who wanted who more, I didn't even fight it. I told her the truth I'm not "seeing" anyone in a defined boundary. So I cracked on her like, so am I to assume correctly that you've been talking to someone? She goes yes, and tells me some crap while making sure to stress the fact that it's an old boyfriend who she never had sex with...don't care

She begins telling me about dude telling her to delete me from her contact's. I laugh, while advising her to "continue" listening to him. Anyway, she asks me about a girl across the street. There is a girl across the street that to put it like Jay-Z " she likes those heroin tracks, she fiends for me!" I mean sometimes when I'm sitting watching the waves she'll strip and bathe, while getting me in conversation with her. not my style though.

h tells me based on the story my sis and her church sister painted, it seemed like I was entertaining the next chick, It was evident in her voice that she could sense the level on which she fucked up, also, since I'm soooooo cool she doesn't have an in cling to the madness that bubbles beneath my skull

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"I'd rather have no bitch than a half a bitch" Iceberg Slim

And the funny thing about all of this is, none of it is your fault; therefore none of it is your responsibility. Therefore, none of it is anything for you to worry or give a shit about. All the fuck-ups are on her account.

Based on that, you can proceed however the fuck you like with a clear conscience.

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"I will not grow in the light, until I pass through the darkest caverns of my heart..."

"Temet Nosce"

Correct me if i'm wrong, but since she was the one who screwed up, and you two are no longer seeing one another at the moment, the above is none of her fucking business anymore, is it?

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"I will not grow in the light, until I pass through the darkest caverns of my heart..."

"Temet Nosce"

There is a significant reason why she was Bing nosey

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"I'd rather have no bitch than a half a bitch" Iceberg Slim