Its been awhile since I've been talking to this girl officially (since my B-Day).
still ain't hit yet but starting to care less now but the thing I noticed with her and this confirms what said in a couple of topics on here. 1) Your heart should definitely be like a tree let these birds come when they want to come let them go when they want to go never yearning for them to return. I guess in another sense this should be called inner peace or being still what is going on in your internal world is definitely reflected on the external world.
Thank goodness for that new course I got its helped recently.
2) the topic about cats being similar to females this girl I've been talking to has a pair of cats when I was still and
calm so were they. When I was riled up so were they when they want to fuss about or play I gave it to them.
3)Women argue for the sake of arguing in most of our interactions I noticed she tends to use the words argue or fight alot and in her perspective we tend to argue alot to me I just think its just talking about B.S.
If I get her to do something she wouldn't like she would usually say first can we not fight or why must we fight before the whole thing gets started I just laugh and go along with it depending on my mood that day anyway. This one is very independent runs her own business has a kid and can be fun to be around with. I think I still need to work more on inner world I don't agree with G about unconditional love but I do want to get to indiffernce to see how the interaction will turn around.
Another great point to bring up is I brought up the point this time without anything poppong off yet when she did something I didn't like and I said can we not fight today in a playful way, her reaction was Whyyyyy
bingo this hit the nail on the head she enjoys the shit she likes the arguing we do have along with that how she likes to talk nasty to me. I believe this is her release of her pent up lust she knows I'm kind of digging her so shes holding out on letting me hit but I don't care she's been paying for my meals so as far as I'm concerned in this area I'm good. I want to use this new level of detachment I have found within to see how the next interaction goes.Also this was mostly by accident but I was working out in an empty gym one day and this girl very attractive was working out next to me the crazy thing is all the places she could have worked out at and she decides to lunges next to me. I didn't do anything about it because I wanted a little more confirmation I noticed when she walks away she looks my way from time to time. I think I might have missed out on my chance but I rather focus on solidifying my mindset before really dealing with anymore women.
