I'm now sure to my great dissatisfaction, that finding the best woman is the number one priority in my programming. Bigger problem is, it seems to be "Always searching, never finding." So I can't be ever happy, nor satisfied.
If I wasn't thinking about women, I don't know what I would think about really.
Isn't the best woman the one who will see you as a Man and Choose you, 'stepping up her game' in the process ?
What about "When you stop searching, you'll find."
Just consider this :
How does thinking about your situation with women make you feel ? unsatisfied, not happy (to quote you).
Why do you resist the urge to LET GO ? You're perpetuating this ...
The number one priority of your programming is BREATHING, DRINKING, EATING, and a SHELTER.
The number two priority is waiting for 'women in heat' (choosing you like crazy) to call you to jump them (patience, patience) ...
However, maybe you could try applying "
The Manual" if that's what you want... (Scottie would attest for it I believe)
I also am now sure that my caling would be something as of my ancestors - Almost all men has been firefighters, in army or special forces, police or ambulance people.. But I can't do any of those because of my health.. So that won't help me fill the void I'd have when trying to disregard the search for a perfect woman
If it's 'almost' all of them, be one of the exceptions if your health doesn't permit it ...
Again, consider this : "What kind of human being you want in this world?
Maybe answering this question will lead you to something.
Why I think it works ? IT IS NEVER ABOUT THE OTHERS, ALWAYS ABOUT YOU.
In fact by asking this question you're just asking : WHAT KIND OF HUMAN BEING AM I ?
Hope it helps ...
I'm not holding anything back, I'm completely honest... I did everything I could think of regarding this and it didn't work, so I'm trapped like a lion tied with chains in a cage
The only prison is the one you create ... just saying.