Natural Freedom

Today I finally went to the core of myself, where I nearly was years ago but stopped short of grasping it.

As I asked myself questions tuning into my subconscious I felt strong emotions and saw an image of my younger self, at the age when I was first rejected, dressed in black and surrounded by an empty dark space, vast as it was it felt suffocating, he was screaming, angry, all my hate was there with him, he was screaming into the empty space, trying to prove something to the world maybe, I couldn't make out what he was saying but I knew what he was screaming about.

Emotions came flooding out and I asked for forgiveness and for this child to see how far I'd come, to open its eyes to the world around him because he doesn't need to be there in that dark place anymore, because everything is going well, with venom the child told me it will not be easy for him to forgive, implying that I have to earn it.

I'm fully aware now of the effects of my self-sabotage over the years, I created this within myself, this whole time the child has been behind the scenes in every thought of self-doubt and insecurity I ever had, anytime I ever got in my own way, I'm making peace with this dark entity within myself, it won't be easy but at least I finally got to this point, I can finally start to make peace with my demons now.

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"Simply put, you being in her life is a BLESSING. Her wronging you in any way is her own self-inflicted CURSE, and if she does wrong you, then let the punishment fit the crime. Her life will absolutely SUCK without you."

Absolutely wonderful...you have arrived, dear friend...you have arrived.

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EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.

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You handled that brilliantly! Those are called "subselves" and there's one for every age, Nathaniel Branden reccomends handling it as you did, with love and care, he also reccomends sentence stems but I think this way works too.

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Don't be sexist, bitches hate that.

"I stopped fighting my inner demons, we're on the same side now" - 'Grinus

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In building a statue, a sculptor doesn't keep adding clay to his subject.He keeps chiseling away at the inessentials until the truth of its creation is revealed without obstructions. Perfection is not when there is no more to add,but no more to take away.

If it wasn't for you Kidd and 'Grinus it would have probably been years until I reached this point, thank you guys, I'm slowly introducing the kid to the world and my life, the next few months will be epic times.

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"Simply put, you being in her life is a BLESSING. Her wronging you in any way is her own self-inflicted CURSE, and if she does wrong you, then let the punishment fit the crime. Her life will absolutely SUCK without you."

that's a great post Alchemist. These days I'm trying to do the same myself...
not easy but I'm doing it...

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"a sniper is the worst romancer, he never makes the first move"

If you ask yourself the right questions, eventually a door will open, keep knocking and he will have your attention.

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"Simply put, you being in her life is a BLESSING. Her wronging you in any way is her own self-inflicted CURSE, and if she does wrong you, then let the punishment fit the crime. Her life will absolutely SUCK without you."