Fufe, I looked up that medical condition you have and one of my close friends has a similar condition when it comes to the skin outbreaks. He will get outbreaks really bad sometimes on his arms and back and stuff and his skin will peel. Just to let you know though, this guy is the most carefree guy I know and lives an awesome life. I was actually hangin with him last night, he's a great guy to hangout with and he parties like a mother fucker.
Alot of people have worse medical conditions, also some people have insane physical disfigurement. THere's this guy on the tv show dancing with the stars that was serving in afganistan and had his face burned in a fire. He has bad scars on his face but the guy is on one of the most popular tv shows ever and is just a fucking awesome guy. Has a great attitude about life and is inspiring.
Few months passed.. Nothing changed.
I meditate regurarly, gave me many things, but nothing about direction in life.. I'm taking art classes, but I don't think it's going anywhere and everytime I'm going home from the lessons, I feel depressed and tired. I don't know what I'm really to do next, I have a little knowledge in many areas but I can't do anything well and have no real education and no money to get any.
It's painful, because I see most people here getting a job in a factory after they finish school and sticking to it untill they are old enough to stop working, and I see myself heading the same way. I don't know anybody who could give me advice, since everybody I know is suffering and don't like their jobs.
All the talk about happiness here is distant to me, since how can I be happy if I suffer half of my day in a job I don't like...
The only thing I came up with, was working for some anti-drug movement or anything related.. But that's hardly ever paid for
Were in the same boat dude. I'm 24, I work 2-3 days a week, still live with my parents, pretty fuckin broke lol no money saved at the moment, social life isnt that great but i'm taking responsibility for it now so it's getting better, i'm halfway towards a bachelors degree but didn't apply to go back to school this semester, so basically nothing is going on in my life. As far as the matrix is concerned i'm a bum lol.
THis whole "having direction in your life/knowing what you want" it's entirely up to us what we want our life to consist of. A choice has to be made on our part. We are not puppets for someone else's agenda. Like my parents break my balls about things i should and shouldn't be doing but they don't have their shit together either. We control our lives, we decide whether were happy with our lives or not.
What i'm aiming for is the only thing to aim for and that is to be happy NOW. Not after this or that happens in the future, I'm happy with my life NOW cause all we have is now. Fuck what people tell you. Listen to what they say but always be skeptical dude cause nobody really has anything figured out. You make the decision of what to aim for and stick with it.