As mentioned in this thread
http://www.naturalfreedom.info/viewtopic.php?f=9&t=2558 and after doing some inner work for what turned out to be a core issue to me, a couple of little stories happened to me since then, which i would like to share with you. I know those stories aren't something new to some of you, but they kind of are to me, especially that i think they are a direct effect of the inner work i did lately. So i hope they will be of value to you. Everything i will mention happened in the last two weeks.
- one day i went to the post office, i had to send some documents. After standing in line for some time i finally get to go to a counter to get my stuff sent. Standing behind the counter is a nice looking lady in her mid 30s in my guess. I approach the counter, and start explaining to her about how i want my stuff sent. I could tell from her eyes that she liked what she saw. As she began to speak she was a bit nervous, with a shaky voice. As time passed by, she got more comfortable and started playing with her hair and giving me smiles. Normally i would say that those smiles are just being nice as a part of business, but not this time. I guess this was my gut feeling, and i got the confirmation for it later.
Anyway, i'm done with almost everything, so i wish her a nice day and leave the counter. I still had to send a box, and she said i had to buy an extra box from them to put mine in and send it. So i had to go back and grab one, and stand in line again. After doing that i go this time to another counter, which was just beside the one with that lady. After standing some time there i turn and look at her, she was literally gazing at me, with her hands playing with her hair on her shoulder. By the time she realised i was looking at her, she gives me a very nice, shy blushing smile. This was my confirmation, it's either that or this lady is taking the being nice on business thing too seriously
. I smile back, finish my business and leave.
- later that day and while i was in the city center getting some things done, i go to this small restaurant to have lunch. I sit and eat, and then have a cup of tea and take some time to relax. My body language is much more open and relaxed now than in the past (another thing that changed in me). While sitting, this kid comes in with his mother to order some food. The kid is standing about 2-3 meters away from me. He sees me and keeps looking. At some point it felt as if i was a superhero, this little guy was looking at me with so much admiration, this is the first time that such a thing happens to me. Anyway, after about half a minute of looking, he goes to his mother.
A couple of minutes later, a girl walks in. Blonde, good shape and clothes, all in all very good looking. Put in mind, at that time the restaurant wasn't even half full, there were a lot of places to sit. The girl sees me, and then starts looking around for a place to sit. She ends up sitting in the table next to mine, with her just right infront of me and us facing each other. I am aware of what's happening, but i'm not having any emotional reaction at all, i wasn't happy or excited because of this, it was just like nothing happened. So i keep enjoying my tea, looking at people as they pass by in the street. In the few times i looked at her, she was already looking at me.
So she's done with eating, and is preparing herself to leave. She stands up, and then grabs her phone and starts doing something with it. I was very sure that this was her waiting for me to make a move, she didn't really look focused on her phone. However, i didn't feel like doing anything, so i didn't. So she then leaves, and so do i.
- I was in my dorm one day, and i see this girl that i haven't seen in weeks, let's call her Monica. Monica is an attractive girl, she's probably one of the most desirable in the dorm. So she comes and hugs me, and then we talk for a couple of minutes. She is standing near to me, and looking deep into my eyes. She occasionally (and subconsciously in my view) puts her hand on my chest while talking (my body was filling my t-shirt well since i have been working out lately). We both have to part ways then, so we did.
A couple of days later, there was a party in my dorm. I was there enjoying my time with some buddies, she comes in with a female friend of hers. Both look attractive and were approached by more than one guy during the night. Anyway, she sees me, she comes and says hi, we talk for a bit. She then goes to dance with her female friend, with her putting herself just infront of me, where i can see her well.
I continue to enjoy my time with my friends. She looked and smiled at me very often while dancing. I then go grab me a drink, i see another female friend of mine, we talk for a bit. A couple of minutes later, Monica comes from the dancefloor and joins the conversation. She immediately stands next to me and puts her arm around mine. To me this was her giving the other girl (or all other girls for that matter) a hint to back off me. After some time she wanted to go back to the dancefloor, and asked me to go with her. I told her ''may be later'', and continued my conversation with the other girl.
I then go back to my friends. One of my friends told me that Monica was looking at me the whole time as i was talking to the other girl, which didn't really surprise me. Anyway, as i was sitting there enjoying my time, i noticed that Monica's female friend was being approached by a guy. He was all over her, having his arms around her and whispering to her, not taking his eyes off her most of the time. I could see that ego boost in her face, and i'm sure Monica saw it too. Monica then goes and finds herself a seat, still somewhere in my sight. Since she is attractive and since symps were all over the place that night, after a couple of minutes she already had two guys feeling so happy talking to her. While there she would occasionally look at me. To me this was (besides her having an ego boost just like her female friend) her trying to make me jealous. Little did she know, i didn't care at all. In addition, playing the jealousy card is in my view immature and not really something that impresses me. So i simply just kept enjoying myself. A couple of minutes later, as i was talking to a friend, i felt two hands gently rubbing my arm. I turn around and it was Monica, asking me ''would you pleeeeease come dance with me?''. I sensed her giving up at that moment. I told her that i am fine spending time talking with my friends, and this was a very honest answer. After that i leave with my friends to go somewhere else, i haven't seen her since then.
In everything that happened above, i never tried or expected anything. All i did was being myself, and being comfortable in my own skin. I truly didn't want attention from anyone, and as a result i was relaxed and indifferent. And guess what, i truly enjoyed my time that night, there were even times where i sat alone, and i still enjoyed the music and the atmosphere, without thinking about people and their opinions at all.
Other similar stories happened while i was writing this (i'm writing this since days), but i think the ones i mentioned were enough to say what i wanted to say.
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