It seems I came into some conclusions.
I care because I wanna make sure, that when I make that move and ask her out, or offer her my number, she won´t reject me. I wanna avoid this rejection, therefore I am looking for something that will give me guarantee, that it is not gonna happen, but the truth is I have no control over it and nothing will be ever certain in this matter, unless I actually openly ask her for what I want. The fact that I care "paralyzes" my action, because I am trying to reach impossible conditions. I am trying to be sure.
There is no certainty, and knowing this could be a motor for my indifference or at least a motivator.
Tell me what you think.
How about this:
You could move tomorrow and get rejected.
You could move next week and get accepted.
The week after, get rejected.
You do not know what is going on in her life, in yours, there are so many variables outside of your control.
There is no certainty.
There is only the moment.
Nothing that happens before affects this moment and this moment affects nothing in the future.
Read all the stories on here about someone who rejected them when they were younger then reappear in their lives later. Rejection is not permanent.
Read that again... Rejection is not permanent.