Hey,
I can't say today yet that I totally don't care... I can still sense the feeling of "wanting her to like me"
I can totally relate to this... feels like the remanent lines of an old program which is still running, but now crashes miserably in my OS.
Its WEIRD to the degree of being SPOOKY, how when SICERELY AND REALLY you don't give a rat ass about them, and let go of them, they flock in the vicinity of your being, the irony of the universe.
There is almost no touching going on between me and women and when that happens I can feel it is awkward for them (even if they initiated it), I can feel like I appear blocked to them. Really hard to explain, but after many times of this happening I did notice I kinda pull away and maybe intimidate women. The conversations can go very deep but it's like the girl won't allow herself to be free near me (obviously because I am not allowing myself to be), not from fear of me taking advantage or anything but because of it being awkward and inappropriate. When I try to touch/get more intimate and kinda fill that missing gap, it looks very needy and again unnatural.
Yeah that because the girls now are preocupied of messing her chances with you, that's why they seem so awkard when interacting with you, they got jealous, impatient, docile, stupid, trying to impress you... you name it, and it's a cute thing.
I'm track down the balance TheKidd!! suggest too.
Thanks for the post Benjamin.