I think cloaking will have to go on the backburner for the time being. Lightsaber battles are a lot of fun.
Did some introspection on how Kidd said to not worry about being cool enough for the people here. When I went out tonight for the first little bit I noticed how I was trying to repeat the epicness of my last night. I decided that I was only getting in my own way. And that I should let it go and step outside it.
I noticed some minor jocking at the bar I was at. Nothing to make a case out of so I left.
Went to my usual spot. Chilled had some drinks, chatted with the bartender. It was pretty dead, some regulars one group of about 4 girls, had the attention of all the guys in the bar. So I observed their sense of entitlement. How they would create space when a guy approached them. How they didnt care. How they worked a guy in a group in unison.
I went back to my drink. I saw a guy I knew but didnt know his name. We started chatting were chilling and then this girl from the High School they went to comes up. I went to school several provinces away so I didnt go to school with them. He introduces her. I know her already from parties but not her name.
Background: This is a girl who is part of a very tight group there is several of them. And their defenses are flawless in a lot of senses. They work together quite well. That is something I am noticing girls work in groups to lead guys astray to decieve while guys are typically alone or feel they need a wingman (which isnt true).
She doesnt like my roommate which is why they were so distant towards me(implied not said). They assumed wrongly that he and I were similiar. I asked her what he was like in High School. She tells me he was too much. I say he has his moments she says yeah all day everyday. And told me that he used to hit on her all the time. (Again implied from within a story she tells me).
This tells me much about him. It confirms many of my suspisions that he was not in the most dominant high school group like he implies. He was on the outside and so cultivated aggression to make up for it.
She also wasnt in the most popular group in High School either but was definitely above him by the way she talks etc. But I digress.
She asks me who I came with
I reply No one
She says that pretty gay.
I say I dont care what you think. Im just here to buy a few drinks.
She talks about how she felt lame even coming by herself. And then asks me some questions. Like well do you go around and talk to people.
I reply Well ...if I feel like it. But I could not talk to a single person all night and I would care less.
Really she says
Yeah I reply
This back and forth goes for a couple minutes....she was testing me for signs of self-doubt. I gave her none.
There is three of us hanging out my buddy her and myself. Then a fourth guy joins and starts hitting on her. He is *friends* with my buddy. He puts him down to build me up. I dont bite, this feels off to me and I know his ulterior motivation. He is looking for an angle.
Sure enough he is leaning in her space...she allows this. And then suddenly they are competing for her attention. My friend is geniunely pissed, he starts talking to me about his friend and that he is a fucking asshole for doing this.
I tell him. Your looking at it the wrong way. Who gives a fuck. What he has done is show you who you cannot trust and that is worth more than vagina.
The group of girls is flitting in and around me. Some subconcious jocking but mostly getting drinks (buying their own). I make note of this but go about my business. I create physical space between me and what is going on with the two guys and the girl.
Its after last call. The one girl from the group of four has been looking at me a bit...by now they have all been trading guys around. I walk up to one of them..she turns me down..I introspect on all the non-verbals she gave off. They were there. So I drop it. Something on her end not mine.
I talked to one of the other girls. She started dancing around me after I held out my hand....she was much better than me. (at dancing) she created a frame. You cannot come in my bubble she says...so I look at her like what is wrong with you. And I leave.
I watch everyone around me.
Time to leave. I turn to the girl with the people I know. Still going for Macdonalds I ask. She says yes. We leave. The two guys are outside. I invite the one I know he declines. But still is invested in the outcome.
We leave Im playing the A Billi remix by Jay Z...so good...off in my own world weaving through the crowds...she is keeping up with me then cuts in a different direction as to imply independence...but returns to the path I was making so thats kinda a mute point.
We spar for a bit. She waits in line at Macdonalds. I go to the bathroom and then cut in front of her.
Grow up she tells me.
No I tell her
She pushes her head into my shoulder I let her.
I was here first she says
Dont care..my spot now. I tell her
She drops it.
Later she said one of us has to grow up and its gonna be you.
I say I havent got to do shit.
She is tells me she is thinking of a comeback.
I check my texts...look back at her...think of a comeback yet I ask.
No she says didnt give it any thought (I feel this is a lie)
Didnt think so I said
Then looks up the address for where we are to call a cab.
This the right address she asks me.
Do I look like a navigator...ask the cashier.
Anyways long story short after we called the cab...she asked me about checkstops and that she wanted to drive home...I told her that was pretty dumb idea and that she could crash on the couch..she accepted.
I then told she would have to take the couch upstairs as Im using the one downstairs to play Assassins Creed. She says that sounds gay. I tell her she is minus a point.She said it could be minus a million points she doesnt give a fuck.
I cannot remember exactly what I said it was minor investment as I was trying to think of a comeback.
Anyways long story short she is sleeping on the couch upstairs right now and Im rocking the 4th Assassins Creed.
Very insightful night
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