There is a lot on my mind...and I'm rather drunk as I post this
Keeping that in mind, I will try to keep this organized and will only post somethings to keep myself from rambling lol
I noticed a lot of things tonight and made some really deep insights I would like to share and if you guys have anything to say or disagree about my points please explain how and why you think that
- went to the bar with my bf's gf orginally he wasn't going to come but when he thought his gf was going to come alone with me he came at the last minute like the cab was already at the house lol.
-she confided some stuff about him in me
-we go the bar, I proceed to get really really drunk
- logical mind kicks into full gear
- I'm outside and chilling with some people and we're talking about virgins and this one girl is like your not a virgin to this one guy I know and I'm like I am legit. And she was like no your not so I asked her how she could tell. And she said your smile. Your def not. We talk for a bit nothing happened.
-I run into the group of guys i met the other day, I was feeling awesome and instead of being the kinda new guy outsider suddenly I'm the center of the group, I'm kinda loose with my cash when I'm drunk lol so I buy everyone a round the one guy I worked with his gf was like come with me we're getting you some. We went outside and we're having a smoke and she says what do you want a blond or brunette? And I said doesn't matter I'm not picky. Not when it comes to hair colour. And she said well what do you want bang or love? And I said bang so she said blonde. And I asked her why she would say that she said all guys that want to bang want blonds they fall in love with brunettes. And that guys confide things in her that are more personal then she feels she should know. But 'whatever'
She also told me guys are dumb and do whatever they're told and looked at me and I said "not this guy". She looks at me and analyzes the group dynamic she said that girl is hot but wants to fuck that guy so fuck that and that girl doesn't want anything to do with that guy so that's whats up. She walked over and starts talking to that girl. That guy thats trying to pick up that girl befriends me etc then talk I peg him as a community guy he talks to the girl thats winging for me. Tries to establish frame dominance from a beta mindset. There was multi-level thinking as the converation was battled out each trying to prove they could think deeper. It was fascinating
-I ask her what she said to that girl she said "I told her you had a huge cock" haha
-I danced with a few different girls nothing came of it, I'm not angry about it its more like a puzzle piece i cannot quite figure out. Can you guys help me?
-Girls I don't know seem to be confiding more secrets in me.
- I have self-belief and money and high value in any situation I come across. There's no need for this coldness, why must these games be played they seem so pointless. I can just buy hookers for much less headache, and investment of my time which is better spent on other things.